Celinda's 18!

Hahaha it wasn't as difficult as we thought to make you cry (even only a minute!). So freakinnn baby girl! LOL. Okay well am gonna tell you a bit, nda, last day me vira and mereditha (also vega and natasha, thankyou!) were going to PIM to buy "something" for your birthday present. We were seriously getting confused because we don't know what should we buy hahaha. Anddd suddenly we just entered to Gramedia and taraaa the ideas come. So then that is your birthday present, several green stuffs! <3

Oh yea I will tell you about my dirty little secret, nda, promise me don't tell it to anyone, yah :p

After I paid the bill, I just walked away from Gramedia and when I almost reaching the gate... I realized I left my binder! I got panic because my student card and the materials for exams are there -_- okay fix I'm careless, indeed. But eventually it was found hahahaha I'm so touched :')

Well, I hope you won't forget this day, nda, sorry if the present as not good as you want. Oh! and I hope you'll get the good score for grammar test today. Hi hi.

Once agaiiin,

Happy birthday Celinda Rayna Walandouw! 

My fave manadonese girl ;)

Is this challenging for me?

I deleted some unimportant postings from the past (around 2009 - 2011). Haha well, actually all of these postings aren't important anyway, but postings that I deleted were quite sucks. OKAY THEN, its the end of March already! 3months left like asdfghjkl. #sowhat.

Oh yeah, I'm still single same as 4years ago, but my heart was left me away. You know, I got broken anymore with the wrong one who I adore so much. Something crossed in my mind, "Oh God why" about 100times. I fall in love for someone and eventually really fall. Word life. Sadly, that was like the first time I'm love, unfortunately God said "no". Again.

Well, seriously I'm not in a good mood and it has been happening for a month. So many problems that I have and like I CAN'T FIND THE SOLUTION. Oh, no, I mean the way to escape from this. Beside the heart problems, yeah, college. I got 62 for grammar result, and that was so bad. How can the basic of English and I got only 62??? I realized my English doesn't good enough, but.... I should pay 900IDR to make up that course. Come on, that's quite expensive, right? I feel sorry to my parents :'( I promised to my self to get better in the second semester for all courses, and guess what? It's 180times harder than the last semester! A courses are really difficult, especially literature and linguistic. And an essay too, listening, grammar, almost all. I'm trying to survive and enjoy, aaaarrgghh heart can't lie. I'm tired. I'm tired to trying,  lying to my self, especially to pretending everything is okay. Sometimes crosses in my head, can I hold on until I get graduated? God I love English and I have so many dreams, they are waiting to catch. Please help me :(

VDAY.

My insides all turned to ash, so slow

And blew away as I collapsed, so cold

A black wind took them away, from sight

And held the darkness over day, that night

And the clouds above move closer

Looking so dissatisfied

But the heartless wind kept blowing, blowing

I used to be my own protection, but not now

Cause my path had lost direction, somehow

A black wind took you away, from sight

And held the darkness over day, that night

And the clouds above move closer

Looking so dissatisfied

And the ground below grew colder

As they put you down inside

But the heartless wind kept blowing, blowing

So now you're gone, and I was wrong

I never knew what it was like, to be alone

On a Valentine's Day, on a Valentine's Day

On a Valentine's Day, on a Valentine's Day

On a Valentine's Day, on a Valentine's Day

(I used to be my own protection, but not now)

On a Valentine's Day, on a Valentine's Day

(Cause my mind has lost direction, somehow)

On a Valentine's Day, on a Valentine's Day

(I used to be my own protection, but not now)

On a Valentine's Day, on a Valentine's Day

(Cause my mind has lost direction, somehow)

.linkin park - valentine's day.

Happy Valentine for those who celebrate.

Sincerely,

-forever alone.